Critical Thinking

Everyone is their own worst critic.  I know I criticize myself all the time and always think the worst of things.  Today I am wondering if I am making the right choices.  I love helping others and making people happy.  But I am now wondering if I am sacrificing my own happiness for others.  I put myself on the back burner all the time.  I can't really think of the last time I was truly happy about something I have done for myself.  Today I need guidance and the person I would turn to is not here.  Today is the day I feel I need my mother the most.  I have cleaned, yelled, sat myself in time out and I don't feel any better.  Took one thing today to set me off and no one understands.  I am stressed to the max and I feel so alone about it.  I know it will pass, but lately it's just been there, simmering and stewing until today.  I just hope I have made the right choices and decisions to better my life.